But the mind reels....
I miss blogging. Why haven't I been blogging words lately? No inspiration? Why not? No outside walking to declutter my brain. A potpourri of homeschooling/afterschooling ideas. Feeling guilty cuz I ignored the dogs today. (guilty for THAT? what a weirdo.) Didn't even muck the kennels. Will pay for THAT tomorrow - extra mucky muckiness. Strange day today, but very productive. Facebook makes me feel yucky. Wish I would have done more prep for my teaching tomorrow. When can I fit it in? Right after the girls leave for school at 7:30. Thinking about friendships. Some of it bloggable, some of it not. Again - need inspiration. Getting warm enough to pull out the double stroller and hit the road with the boys!! Thinking about devotions. Quiet time. Hourly prayer. My time in the GBS prayer room in college. Clarity. Power. Healing. Strength. even Glory. Think a prayer room should be painted light blue. That room was a bit dark & creepy. But Oh.. the greatest times ever. Couldn't wait for the mid-afternoon hour. Spoiled me forever. Unrealistic expectations? Stop the thinking!
That's it. I have to blog. I've learned not to fight the thoughts. Makes it worse. This one may end up in the drafts pile like so many others lately.
But devotions matter. Yessirree, they do. And I'll just say it. I struggle somtimes. Life has seasons. The getting-up-through-the-night-with-baby seasons are tough for me. (Wait, do I have other seasons?) But I had a bit of an epiphany tonight. Maybe an old thought in a new way. I sometimes dread devotions because of the powerful times of prayer and worship I have experienced. So when I do the right and holy and disciplined thing and have devotions that are normal....un-sensational. Sometimes maybe even a tad boring...(can I say that out loud?) I think it makes me frustrated.
Psalm 107:9 ESV